When my anxiety gangs up on me, I feel like I’m completely alone. No matter how many friends I have, I feel like all of my big heavy feelings are too much for them. Like I can’t go to any of them with all this. I feel like no one can hold me. It’s too much too much too much too much too much. In real life (not panicked-anxious-brain life), intellectually, I know that I have wonderful people in my life who want to help me and hold me. And I know that it’s natural to need that. Need help. Need people. But my automatic trauma response says tells me it’s not right not natural not good to need people. I do need the shit out of people tho.
Single
2022
MMXXII
aBOUT
Songlist
dynamic song count
3:06
Pairs with
Scorpio season
Lyrics
help me,
hold me,
heal me
reassure me,
tell me
you see me,
you hear me,
feel me
help me,
hold me,
heal me
i have trouble knowin’
if all your adoration ain't showin’
how could i know
when you walk out the door
that you’re not rolling your eyes
because i asked for more
asking you to
help me,
hold me,
heal me
reassure me,
tell me
you see me,
you hear me,
feel me
help me,
hold me,
heal me
i grew up to believe
that wanting to feel loved isn’t a natural need
so how could i know
when you come to hold me
that you’re not gonna turn around later
just to scold me
how could i know? (how could i know?)
how could i know? (how could i know?)
how could i know? (how could i know?)
how could i know? (how could i know?)
help me,
hold me,
heal me
reassure me,
tell me
you see me,
you hear me,
you feel me
help me,
hold me,
heal me
help me,
hold me,
heal me
reassure me,
tell me
you see me,
you hear me,
feel me
help me,
hold me,
heal me
Credits
Written by
Jill McCracken
Tracking
Andrew Oedel
Ghost Hit Recording
Mix
Andrew Oedel
Ghost Hit Recording
Mastering
Brian Lucey
Magic Garden Mastering
Strings tracking
Ryan Renteria
Lead vocals, background vocals, rhodes
Jill McCracken
Bass guitar
Miguel Cepeda
Drums, percussion
Kevin Ewer
Electric guitar
Luke Scotten
Background vocals
Octavia Bryant
Background vocals
Eileen O'Hara
Background vocals
Notebook P
Viola
Kevonna Shuford
Violin
Tiffany Chang
Strings arrangement
Shane Dylan
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