big dog

waiting on the curb, waiting in the car

no way to find out where you are

‍

tiny little hearts beat a mile a minute

still still as the ignition with the key still in it

‍

depend, depend, depend on your dependents

the end, the end, the ending to your sentence

‍

out of your mind, out of your sight

when you're gone, i bark all night

‍

before you left home, you filled up my bowl

you keep your companions under control

‍

depend, depend, depend on your dependents

the end, the end, the ending to your sentence

‍

descend, descend, descend on your descendants

depend, descend, depend, descend, depend, descend, depend

‍

driver's license and a way to get out

i depend on me now

‍

curious what i'm about

i depend on me now

‍

college degree and a way to make money

i depend on me now

‍

i'm not laughing if it's not funny

i depend on me now

‍

four hundred five hundred miles between us

i depend on me now

‍

imagine our family if you could have seen us

i depend on me now

‍

big strong lungs to scream and shout

i depend on me now

‍

ALL FOR LOVE, NEVER FOR CLOUT

I DEPEND ON ME NOW

what do i do when i close my eyes

and it doesn't go away?

several hours passing over

i still feel the same

‍

it sits lightly on my shoulders

like a gravitational weight

and i know it so well now

but i do not know its name

‍

i can change my whole life

but i can't change you

‍

i can change my whole life

‍

it is easy for you to show your love

in the way that you know how

in the comfort of your limits

have them watch you take a bow

‍

but how i really need you

always makes you angry

it's no wonder

i feel like everyone hates me

‍

i can change my whole life

but i can't change you

i can change my whole life

but i can't change you

‍

nobody taught you patience

nobody taught you poise

you learned somewhere that

kindness has a proud, resounding voice

‍

and never in the shadows

have you whispered something sweet

simply for the pure joy

of kindness

being free

‍

i can change, oh i can change

my whole life

‍

i can change my whole life

my whole life

‍

i can change my whole life

but i can't change you

‍

i can change my whole life

but i can't change you

you can be one thing

you can be two things

you can be nothing

you can be everything

‍

you can be all of that

you can be none of that

you can be some of that

i just wanna tell you that

‍

you can be

you can just be

‍

i want your peace

i want your freedom

all of your explanations,

i hope you don't need 'em

except when you want 'em

'cause i want your noise

want you to have food, water, shelter

protection and a voice

‍

i don't have to know you

to want this for you

i don't even have to like you

let alone adore youto love you

to love you

to love you

to love you

‍

i love you

i love you

‍

you can be

you can just be

‍

you can be this thing

you can be that thing

or you can say "none of these,

i'm gonna do my own thing"

‍

if you said it loud

or just in your head

or whispered in secret

i believe what you said

‍

you can be

you can just be

you can be

you can be

‍

i love you

i love you

i love you

‍

i don't have to know you

to want this for you

i don't even have to like you

let alone adore you

to love you

to love you

to love you

to love you

i love you

i love you

i love you

‍

i love you

i love you

i love you

when it's you, i can't say no

and i'm not tryin' hard to let go

if it's never gonna be the right time

then let's make it right

now

‍

eels like fighting for my life

'cause there's no other way to spend my time

here, alive

i didn't come here just to

pay my bills and die

‍

never gonna be the right time

never gonna, never gonna

never gonna be the right time

never gonna, never gonna

‍

i can't know when i'll arrive

or if this whole thing's about the drive

and maybe i'll never know, no

i'll never know

‍

and i hereby release

my trust onto the trees

and sky

they understand

much more than i

‍

never gonna be the right time

never gonna, never gonna

never gonna be the right time

never gonna, never gonna

‍

if it's never gonna be the right time

then let's make it right

let's make it right now

let's make it right

let's make it right now

let's make it right

‍

bigger than fire,

more than desire,

that's my devotion

...devotion!

‍

bigger than fire,

more than desire,

that's my devotion

...devotion!

‍

sweet devotion

sweet devotion

sweet devotion

sweet...

‍

yea yea yea yea yea

no no no

yea yea yea yea

no no no...

‍

never gonna be the right time

never gonna, never gonna

never gonna be the right time

never gonna, never gonna

‍

if it's never gonna be the right time

then let's make it right

let's make it right now

let's make it right

let's make it right now

let's make it right

‍

bigger than fire,

more than desire,

that's my devotion

...devotion!

‍

bigger than fire,

more than desire,

that's my devotion

...devotion!

‍

bigger than fire,

more than desire,

that's my devotion

...devotion!

‍

bigger than fire,

more than desire,

that's my devotion

...devotion!

‍

don't dig me up from the bottom of

your contact list or you'll know i'm pissed

‍

i grew up trying to cover up

my ugly feelings such as this

‍

don't take me off the shelf if

you don't wanna read me

i'm not some coffee table

easy-browsing thing

‍

i'm not the one to guide you

softly, gently off to sleep

‍

you can go ahead

miss me, baby

miss me, baby

‍

well you say that you want the truth

but is there even truth in that?

‍

my truth is an unabridged

encyclopedexpansion pack

‍

you're not the one to listen to me

you're not the one, listen to me

you're not the one

you're not the one

you're not the one

‍

you can go ahead

miss me, baby

miss me, baby

‍

everybody is so casual, casual

everybody is so chill

everybody is so casual, casual

everybody is so chill

everybody is so casual, casual

everybody is so chill

i could never be so casual, casual

i could never be

‍

you can go ahead

miss me, baby

miss me, baby

‍

go ahead

miss me, baby

miss me, baby

‍

everybody is so casual, casual

everybody is so chill

i could never be so casual, casual

i could never be

everybody is so casual, casual

everybody is so chill

i could never be so casual, casual

i could never be

‍

miss me, baby

miss me, baby

miss me, baby

miss me, baby

miss me, baby

miss me, baby!

to all the men

lucky to have been

close to my body

starting when

i was just thirteen

and too small

to make a scene

‍

you take, you take from me

you take, and then you leave

‍

to all the people

who were raised

as girls

we know

that tiny

is the best thing

you could be

why do you think that is?

why do you think that is?

why do you think that is?

why do you think that is?

‍

you take, you take from me

you take, and then you leave

‍

you take, you take from me

you take, and then you leave

‍

if nobody you know is the problem

then where's the problem coming from?

‍

'cause everyone i know has this problem

it's not adding

it's not adding

it's not adding up

‍

you take, you take from me

you take, you take from me

‍

nobody ever asked me

and i wanted to be easy

‍

my soul had left my body

my brain stopped making memories

‍

it was trying to protect me

‍

you take, you take

you take, you take

you take, you take

you take, you take

you take, you take from me

i used to be so delicious to you, baby

you could have me in one sitting

go for seconds, still be hitting

and now

you're feeling guilty

you indulged in me too quickly

you can't keep me in the house

you can't keep me around

‍

i used to be so delicious to you, baby

you could have me in one sitting

go for seconds, still be hitting

and now

you're feeling guilty

you indulged in me too quickly

you can't keep me in the house, oh no no

you can't keep me around

‍

yea yea yea, no no no no no

yea yea yea, no no no no no

yea yea yea, no no no no no

yea yea yea, no no no no

‍

i used to be so delicious to you, baby

nothing to buy, nothing to sell

how long's it been since i have had a moment to myself?

nowhere to go, no one to be

‍

and who am i? and who are you?

without the things we got to do

‍

i'm gonna do it do it do it

do it do it til it does me in

‍

i'm gonna do it do it do it

do it do it til it does me in

‍

something to say, something to know

something to build up to the top all the way from the floor

give me something, oh something

‍

and where am i? and where are you?

with everything we're getting through

am i floating above my body? am i even in the room?

‍

do it do it do it

do it do it til it does me in

‍

i'm gonna do it do it do it

do it do it til it does me in

‍

do it do it do it

do it do it til it does me in

‍

do it do it do it

do it do it til it does me in

‍

i'm gonna do it do it do it

do it do it til it does me in

‍

do it do it do it

do it do it til it does me in

‍

do it do it do it

do it do it til it does me in

‍

oh and where am i? and where are you?

with everything we're getting through

am i floating above my body? am i even in the room?

‍

do it do it do it

do it do it til it does me in

‍

do it do it do it

do it do it til it does me in

‍

do it do it do it

do it do it til it does me in

‍

do it do it do it

do it do it til it does me in

it don't cost a thing to spend your loving on me

it don't cost a thing

it don't cost a thing

‍

it don't cost a thing to spend your time on me

no it don't cost a thing

no it don't cost a thing

‍

but you guard

it like

your life

savings

‍

you guard

it like

your life

savings

‍

your life

savings

‍

your life

savings

‍

your life

savings

i played your silly games from the start

they put it on my chart

a quick and easy labor

even as a baby, i knew

exactly how to play

the rules, the risk, the price to pay

a friday in july

it's fabled that i didn't even cry

‍

i'm not that angry

anymore

i don't even

think about it

i don't think about you

anymore

but when i do

‍

some people go to therapists

hands balled up in tightened fists

slowly, over time,

they come into a clearer peace of mind

understanding they did

all that they could do

with what they had

and that's beautiful for them

but i don't feel the same way

about you

‍

i'm not that angry

anymore

i don't even

think about it

i don't think about you

anymore

but when i do

‍

i just don't

i just don't

i just don't

i don't like you

‍

i just don't

i just don't

i just don't

i don't like you

‍

i just don't

i just don't

i just don't

i don't like you

and i don't have to

‍

i just don't

i just don't

i just don't

i don't like you

and i don't have to

‍

anymore

anymore

anymore

gripping, holding onto love

wield it like a boxing glove

never having done enough

you and i are comprised of

‍

(the same things)

‍

gripping, holding onto love

(the same things)

‍

wield it like a boxing glove

(the same things)

‍

never having done enough

you and i are comprised of

when i think about you, i can feel your fear

covered only by a thin veneer

and i wear mine like a souvenir

from my past life

‍

when i see it on you, i can feel it in me

we had the same mother, father, dog family

big brother,

we must be scared of the same things

‍

and i don't know what i'm saying about it

i'm just writing it down for when i start to doubt it

opposites are just the same

going different ways

hey

‍

we're the same things, same things, same things

the same things, same things, same things

‍

difference, lots

a likeness, plenty

you clutch onto your children,

i won't have any, no

we're scared of the same things

‍

you want someone to follow

i wanna lead everybody

you count all of your pennies

i can't look my money

no no, no no, no no

we're scared of the same things

‍

and i don't know what i'm saying about it

i'm just writing it down for when i start to doubt it

opposites are just the same

going different ways

hey

‍

and i don't know what i'm saying about it

i'm just writing it down for when i start to doubt it

opposites are just the same

going different ways

hey

‍

the same things, same things, same things

the same things, same things, same things

the same things, same things, same things

‍

same things, same things

oh lord i'm not the same

and i'm never gonna be the same

‍

oh lord i'm not the same

and i'm never gonna be the same, the same

‍

thank god i'm not the same

and i'm never gonna be the same, the same

‍

thank god i'm not the same

(thank god i'm not the same)

thank god i'm not the same

(thank god i'm not the same)

‍

thank god i'm not the same

and i'm never gonna be the same

‍

the same

the same

the same

the same

i don't know how to have you in my life

one second, i am glued to you

the next, i want to fight

or likely fly

away
‍

i want to learn to stay

i want to learn to be here

in a fuckin' healthy way

‍

i don't know how to have you in my life

you terrify me sometimes

me, i'm much more bark than bite

i'll sink my teeth

into

what i'm not supposed to have

i'll turn around three times

before i find my spot to land

‍

i don't know how to have you in my life

and all this back and forth does something

i don't think i like

it's feeling too

familiar

i probably should have figured

‍

but i can't figure any of this out

no, i can't figure out what happens now

‍

i can't figure anything

or anyone

anyhow